I Do NOT Like Chair Tests

I really, really, REALLY do NOT like chair tests. I, Firefly, again sit 4th or 5th chair. I have not bothered to ask why they still think I'm a worthless player, as that is how they make me feel. They make me feel like I am just as bad as when I had the flu. Isn't that a WONDERFUL thought?

I do NOT like chair tests. So if my best isn't good enough to play 'Star Wars', why am I in book 4 practicing Vivaldi?!?!?And they won't tell me what I did wrong, why I'm so bad at playing ' Star Wars'. If they told me that, I'd still be mad at 5th chair, but at least I'd know what to make sure to practice next time.

Maybe it's because THEY don't know what I did wrong. Maybe it's 'cause they just decided that So and So needed to sit in front of me, and Blah Blah, too, till I was pushed back all the way to fifth.  That's teetering on the line of 2nd violin, and I know it. 

What fun.